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2020 ytd fic reflection + future works ???
more of a commentary post on the works i've posted this year, since i always do my typical end of the year writing meme when the dust has truly settled!!
YTD STATS:
fics: 5
fandoms: miss a, got7, twice, day6, nct, pristin, seventeen
word count: 22,870
i'd draw you in my favorite color | jinyoung/suzy | 3k
my yeoksi team p fic for the year... i like that i finally got the chance to write a full-length jrzy fic after 5 years in shipping hell [remember when they were jyp's maknaes!!] [ignores the voice saying "sapphy they don't even interact anymore"] this is more of a character study fic, but i ultimately didn't know how to end it so the ending left me feeling unfulfilled, but at the same time i didn't want to go back and change it @@ i think there are some good lines and ideas in this fic, but the execution [limited plot development and consequently character development] just leaves a lot to be desired for me... in the end i think this fic is solid but i just think of all the possibilities of what it COULD'VE been you know T____T *sighs dreamily*
그냥 | nayoung/jeonghan | 3.1k
probably the fic i had the most fun writing this year, mostly because i was so entertained by thinking of how certain sebongies and pristins would fit into the teraha universe!! also nothing really quite brings you more joy than writing your tinhets in your favorite niche aus amirite? random note but: i re-skimmed through this last week and found an embarrassingly obvious timeline error that i hope no one noticed when reading the fic for [looks at calendar] the first 6 or so months it was published... no beta we die like accidentally finding your own awful typos 2 years later... another one for the unsatisfying ending list, but i think this one was better because it was actually the way i intended it to end = i feel less regret knowing this. i think i realized after writing this fic that i will really never be able to write a linear timeline fic again because i literally just write the scenes as they come to my head and then i've jumped around so much from past to present and linked those sections together that it becomes more of a mess to re-linearize them than leave them be! i'm hesitant to say this is my favorite fic of mine from this year because i'm not particularly in love with anything i've written in 2020 but if i had to choose one, this would probably be it T___T and thus began [spiderman meme of me and risa posting to the ao3 Im Nayoung/Yoon Jeonghan tag] again... [this is the best thing to happen from this fic <3]
perfect girl revolution | 2yeon | 3.8k
okay, i totally forgot this fic existed for a second but this ACTUALLY might be my favorite fic of mine for the year... which is surprising considering how much i hated it directly after posting [seriously considered socking it before reveals] [but then i realized the gratuitous brian cameo would just id me anyway so what was the point!] i just think writing nayeon is so much fun and i really did enjoy writing her relationship with jeongyeon in this one... all my best fics are when i develop a hyperfixation for a pairing i didn't look twice at before, it seems... i think my biggest regret here is the ending [again!!] but i really like the ideas and the way i developed their relationship!
EVERY PIECE OF ME WANTS EVERY PIECE OF YOU | nayeon/young k | 5.1k
for real, how did this fic turn out so long!! things i am proud of: 1. after 2 years, i finally wrote my princess diaries nayeon au, 2. brian kang is the type to write hit songs about every person who has broken his heart. i'm always ambivalent in terms of how i feel about this fic because when i re-read it, it's actually not bad, but it's not. great either, you know? i think the first half is decent and then i started running out of time and then i changed tense three times in one section and then it kind of goes from there... like objectively there is nothing Wrong with this fic, but i feel like i didn't take any risks when writing it = leads to some sort of unfulfillment. i don't know - it's not deep! i know not every fic i write has to be, and i love rom-coms, which this was supposed to be, but i feel like this turned out so lighthearted and inconsequential that there's no impact. i guess that's the biggest regret.
dance to this electrolyte beat! | jaemren | 7.7k
the true how-did-this-fic-turn-out-so-long award winner... probably the fic that was hardest to write for me this year - i think i had many more ideas of things i wanted to touch upon in this fic, but it was Too much for it all to remain cohesive that i ended up giving up a lot of it [also because i realized i didn't want to write about those things anymore halfway through the fic @@] i think this fic has an identity crisis... at first i wanted it to be more of a coming-of-age fic about jaemin, who peaked in high school, coming down from all of that because he'd lost a lot of those things [volleyball, popularity, and ultimately his relationship from then] but then in turning the focus to his relationship with renjun it turned more [accidentally] into a story about grief over losing someone you really cared about [over stupid things]. i don't know... in concept this fic was good but in execution it's like... a matter of taste. for how many words this fic is, i think it really struggles to get these ideas across = that ultimately happens because i had the kind of writer's block where i just couldn't imagine what scenes to put in / there were the overarching themes, but my brain was like [cannot fill in the blanks to get there] !! i think i'm getting to the stage in writing where the Words are fine [if i may toot my own horn] and the style is fine but the plot / character development is like... [cricket noises] and i think that was a little too obvious with this fic T____T
FUTURE WORKS ??? [aka things i would like to write so i can retire from ficdom for good]
honestly there are Too many... but here's what i hope to complete [maybe] in the year that's left and 2021!!
the big ticket items:
- wwjn sputnik sweetheart au [that i promised juneypuff in 2017]
- wwjn idolpro/p101 au [that i promised juneypuff in 2018]
- wwjn pushing daisies/small town detectives au - my original idea for hvt last year, but i didn't have enough time to execute it so i changed gears and wrote wi-fi... here's to hoping i stop chickening out!!
- jieqiong/jun/[minghao] future canon - i have wanted to write this for So long and i finally have developed some scenes / plot in my mind enough to start it!! whenever it is i start it. i just want this fic to Exist.
- seungmin/hyunjin booksmart au - i already signed up for skz jukebox to force myself to actually write this!
- seungmin/hyunjin cardcaptor sakura au [for shida's bday c. 2019] - if i can't write the booksmart au, i will write this one. nice to have options...
- [fire elmo gif] DOTAE DEVASTATION - have you ever felt dotae devastation inside of you? this is just a challenge because i feel like more of a nct casual, but dotae just ignites a fire deep within me so i don't know what the best type of fic to write for them is... taking ideas!
- seulgi-wonpil-young k-hyojung au fic - where seulgi and young k are siblings and wonpil is seulgi's first love from high school, and now wonpil and seulgi are student teachers at their old high school. a slice of life fic where nothing happens [actually there's more but just not putting the whole plot here!!] i don't know, i just came up with this one day and thought i'd really like to write it!
halloween-themed fics that i always never finish by halloween:
- wwjn fruit's basket au... jeon neonu is cursed to turn into a cat every time the one he likes touches him / under other types of stress. and of course he likes junnie!!
- youngpil buzzfeed unsolved au [planned in 2018 for ellie]. does buzzfeed unsolved even exist anymore.
- txt what we do in the shadows au - i think the biggest hurdle is figuring out the best way to write a mockumentary. but i have the ideas already!!
less priority, less likely to be written:
- fromiskz lino/jisun ice dancers au [supposed to be written back in feb]
- najaem ryeongchae super rich kids au
- taegyu magical realism fic
- inyyjh - i don't know about what or when but i know risa will give me the inyyjh brainworms somehow!!
- there's definitely more but i don't want to get anyone's [my] hopes up!!
YTD STATS:
fics: 5
fandoms: miss a, got7, twice, day6, nct, pristin, seventeen
word count: 22,870
i'd draw you in my favorite color | jinyoung/suzy | 3k
my yeoksi team p fic for the year... i like that i finally got the chance to write a full-length jrzy fic after 5 years in shipping hell [remember when they were jyp's maknaes!!] [ignores the voice saying "sapphy they don't even interact anymore"] this is more of a character study fic, but i ultimately didn't know how to end it so the ending left me feeling unfulfilled, but at the same time i didn't want to go back and change it @@ i think there are some good lines and ideas in this fic, but the execution [limited plot development and consequently character development] just leaves a lot to be desired for me... in the end i think this fic is solid but i just think of all the possibilities of what it COULD'VE been you know T____T *sighs dreamily*
그냥 | nayoung/jeonghan | 3.1k
probably the fic i had the most fun writing this year, mostly because i was so entertained by thinking of how certain sebongies and pristins would fit into the teraha universe!! also nothing really quite brings you more joy than writing your tinhets in your favorite niche aus amirite? random note but: i re-skimmed through this last week and found an embarrassingly obvious timeline error that i hope no one noticed when reading the fic for [looks at calendar] the first 6 or so months it was published... no beta we die like accidentally finding your own awful typos 2 years later... another one for the unsatisfying ending list, but i think this one was better because it was actually the way i intended it to end = i feel less regret knowing this. i think i realized after writing this fic that i will really never be able to write a linear timeline fic again because i literally just write the scenes as they come to my head and then i've jumped around so much from past to present and linked those sections together that it becomes more of a mess to re-linearize them than leave them be! i'm hesitant to say this is my favorite fic of mine from this year because i'm not particularly in love with anything i've written in 2020 but if i had to choose one, this would probably be it T___T and thus began [spiderman meme of me and risa posting to the ao3 Im Nayoung/Yoon Jeonghan tag] again... [this is the best thing to happen from this fic <3]
perfect girl revolution | 2yeon | 3.8k
okay, i totally forgot this fic existed for a second but this ACTUALLY might be my favorite fic of mine for the year... which is surprising considering how much i hated it directly after posting [seriously considered socking it before reveals] [but then i realized the gratuitous brian cameo would just id me anyway so what was the point!] i just think writing nayeon is so much fun and i really did enjoy writing her relationship with jeongyeon in this one... all my best fics are when i develop a hyperfixation for a pairing i didn't look twice at before, it seems... i think my biggest regret here is the ending [again!!] but i really like the ideas and the way i developed their relationship!
EVERY PIECE OF ME WANTS EVERY PIECE OF YOU | nayeon/young k | 5.1k
for real, how did this fic turn out so long!! things i am proud of: 1. after 2 years, i finally wrote my princess diaries nayeon au, 2. brian kang is the type to write hit songs about every person who has broken his heart. i'm always ambivalent in terms of how i feel about this fic because when i re-read it, it's actually not bad, but it's not. great either, you know? i think the first half is decent and then i started running out of time and then i changed tense three times in one section and then it kind of goes from there... like objectively there is nothing Wrong with this fic, but i feel like i didn't take any risks when writing it = leads to some sort of unfulfillment. i don't know - it's not deep! i know not every fic i write has to be, and i love rom-coms, which this was supposed to be, but i feel like this turned out so lighthearted and inconsequential that there's no impact. i guess that's the biggest regret.
dance to this electrolyte beat! | jaemren | 7.7k
the true how-did-this-fic-turn-out-so-long award winner... probably the fic that was hardest to write for me this year - i think i had many more ideas of things i wanted to touch upon in this fic, but it was Too much for it all to remain cohesive that i ended up giving up a lot of it [also because i realized i didn't want to write about those things anymore halfway through the fic @@] i think this fic has an identity crisis... at first i wanted it to be more of a coming-of-age fic about jaemin, who peaked in high school, coming down from all of that because he'd lost a lot of those things [volleyball, popularity, and ultimately his relationship from then] but then in turning the focus to his relationship with renjun it turned more [accidentally] into a story about grief over losing someone you really cared about [over stupid things]. i don't know... in concept this fic was good but in execution it's like... a matter of taste. for how many words this fic is, i think it really struggles to get these ideas across = that ultimately happens because i had the kind of writer's block where i just couldn't imagine what scenes to put in / there were the overarching themes, but my brain was like [cannot fill in the blanks to get there] !! i think i'm getting to the stage in writing where the Words are fine [if i may toot my own horn] and the style is fine but the plot / character development is like... [cricket noises] and i think that was a little too obvious with this fic T____T
FUTURE WORKS ??? [aka things i would like to write so i can retire from ficdom for good]
honestly there are Too many... but here's what i hope to complete [maybe] in the year that's left and 2021!!
the big ticket items:
- wwjn sputnik sweetheart au [that i promised juneypuff in 2017]
- wwjn idolpro/p101 au [that i promised juneypuff in 2018]
- wwjn pushing daisies/small town detectives au - my original idea for hvt last year, but i didn't have enough time to execute it so i changed gears and wrote wi-fi... here's to hoping i stop chickening out!!
- jieqiong/jun/[minghao] future canon - i have wanted to write this for So long and i finally have developed some scenes / plot in my mind enough to start it!! whenever it is i start it. i just want this fic to Exist.
- seungmin/hyunjin booksmart au - i already signed up for skz jukebox to force myself to actually write this!
- seungmin/hyunjin cardcaptor sakura au [for shida's bday c. 2019] - if i can't write the booksmart au, i will write this one. nice to have options...
- [fire elmo gif] DOTAE DEVASTATION - have you ever felt dotae devastation inside of you? this is just a challenge because i feel like more of a nct casual, but dotae just ignites a fire deep within me so i don't know what the best type of fic to write for them is... taking ideas!
- seulgi-wonpil-young k-hyojung au fic - where seulgi and young k are siblings and wonpil is seulgi's first love from high school, and now wonpil and seulgi are student teachers at their old high school. a slice of life fic where nothing happens [actually there's more but just not putting the whole plot here!!] i don't know, i just came up with this one day and thought i'd really like to write it!
halloween-themed fics that i always never finish by halloween:
- wwjn fruit's basket au... jeon neonu is cursed to turn into a cat every time the one he likes touches him / under other types of stress. and of course he likes junnie!!
- youngpil buzzfeed unsolved au [planned in 2018 for ellie]. does buzzfeed unsolved even exist anymore.
- txt what we do in the shadows au - i think the biggest hurdle is figuring out the best way to write a mockumentary. but i have the ideas already!!
less priority, less likely to be written:
- fromiskz lino/jisun ice dancers au [supposed to be written back in feb]
- najaem ryeongchae super rich kids au
- taegyu magical realism fic
- inyyjh - i don't know about what or when but i know risa will give me the inyyjh brainworms somehow!!
- there's definitely more but i don't want to get anyone's [my] hopes up!!
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i definitely did not spot the timeline error haha... what was it... and i hope that you get the brain worms again <3
i don't think it's necessarily true for you specifically but i also feel like it's easiest to write fic for a pairing you've never written before because the second time around it's like not as novel to both you or your readers, so its harder to be original with the best of the dynamic?
i am in love with all your wip ideas honestly... and i'm glad the list is so long because it means you will never retire!!!! :D i don't know dotae except for my friend's tweeting about how they're so so close... and i remember all your wip snippets of wonhui are cute but the jww turns into a cat every time jun touches him sounds soooooo good!! and even if idk the media or the pairing there's always something about each of these fic concepts that makes me interested to see how ull approach it *____*
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re: writing fic for a pairing you've never written before - i agree with this! also because for most pairings, i feel like the dynamic stays constant (?) or at least the way you view it... ofc there are ships where the dynamic changes over the years [i.e minwon] but sometimes i don't stick in the fandom (or at least in a fic-writing way) long enough for that to happen @@
risa we will get to 100 fics >__< or at least 100 fic ideas... [holds up glass] to retirement!!
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i feel like i'm still in that stage of "oh shucks this sucks!!" @ my jaemren fic but who knows, maybe i will think it's my magnum opus in a year! i'm glad you appreciate the commentary behind it T___T <3
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(but all jokes aside i don't think i can write seungj*n anymore!!)